My Poetry

This is a display of my poetry. You can leave comments or your own poems. I agree not to use anyone elses poetry without permission and would require others to do the same.

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Location: Bedworth, Warwickshire, United Kingdom

I put my age on here 4 years ago. Instead of updating it every year, I shall just say that I was born in 1980 and you can work out how old I am. :) I am Mum to 2 children(both boys)who have been inspiration for much of my poetry. I have had several poems published in different books but I thought it would be nice to keep it all in one place. Unfortunately I don't have all of my older poetry so this will be mostly recent.

Tuesday, December 19, 2017

Lost

(I wrote this 31st October 2015. Title given today. This is another I'd written on Facebook and forgot until it appeared again in Memories).



You think it's a trivial matter
But this is breaking my heart
You think it's because of my past
Because you don't understand your part.

I thought I had finally found someone
To share in things that I wanted to do
But even though it's important to me
You won't let me do them with you.

I'll talk and you'll tell me I'm silly
While I'm crying on the inside
It wasn't too much to ask, I thought
I don't know what you're trying to hide.

All I asked was to be included
You said that I could be
But all I've had is excuses
And not meaning the things you say.

I've thought long and hard about this
Whether or not I should feel as I do
But the more we talk about it
The more I feel pushed away by you.

You don't know how I'm feeling
Although I have tried to say
I know you don't understand
But it's not about getting my way.

I asked you to prove something to me
You then showed the opposite's true
You'd sooner give up on something
Than include me in things you do.

We've talked and talked about it
But go in circles and get nowhere
The things you say don't make any sense
It seems you just don't want me there.

I don't know what the truth is
Because you keep changing your mind
Contradiction and excuses
That's all I seem to find.

You say you want more time together
So gave up something 'for me'
You stopped doing something I wanted to do
So we spend more time watching TV.

You keep telling me I'm silly
And that's why I don't always talk
I don't want to go over the same things
But I can't pretend it's OK any more.

Tuesday, November 21, 2017

For Chelsea

If I could, I'd be right there
To give you a hug and then declare
How I feel, for you may not know
That I'd do anything to see the little ones grow.

We may not talk much, but I'm always here
For a quick chat or a listening ear.
If you need me, I'll be by your side
Just say the word, and, no matter how long the ride
I'll be there, I'll make my way
Because family is not just DNA.

They're the people who love you, the people who care
The people who'd do anything just to have you there.
Those who want to be with you, and would give their all
To know you are safe, and catch you when you fall.

Sunday, May 28, 2017

Broken

Written 27th May 2016

I can't fix it but I can't bear it being broken
I can't be there, where I want to be.
I can't stand this pain but I don't understand it
Or why you can't see what it's doing to me.
Perhaps you think it doesn't matter, you deserve it
Your heart has broken but you think that's OK
Have you forgotten or put it to one side?
Did you listen to what I had to say?
I know that you had those feelings
I saw it in your eyes
The heartbreak that you accepted
Because of someone else's lies.

Also published on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/SapphireMRavenclaw/

Monday, February 27, 2017

Worth It

Written 26th February 2017. First published on Facebook Becky J Lucas/Sapphire M Ravenclaw

Sometimes, being with you is hard
But I'd have it no other way
It's all part of who you are
And I'll be with you every day.
There are days my heart hurts
Because it's too hard to understand
But nothing is ever too much
Because you're a wonderful man
I won't hide my feelings
Whatever they may be
I know that life is confusing sometimes
But you will always have me.
I'll always be there for you
In sickness and in health
To help you through the hard times
And enjoy life when you're well.
I won't pretend it's easy
There are times I've cried
When I think we've got nowhere
Even though I've tried.
I have thought I couldn't do it
Times I've wanted to walk out the door
But I promise I'll never do that
Because you're all I want and more.

Friday, January 20, 2017

Untitled

Written yesterday (19th January 2017)


When you feel like you're sinking
because you've almost sunk before.
When what you want most of all
Is to walk out of the door.
When the cycle starts again
and you're sinking 'to despair
When it's happened before
And nobody was there
When you feel like you're drowning
When you thought you'd start to swim
Because you'd let yourself believe
That positivity could win
You still feel like you're drowning
Like it's happening again
But this time, you are stronger
And you didn't have him then.
You think you're falling back
To seven years ago or more
Because it feels like it did
When you could not see the door.
When you wonder if it's just a test
To see how far you've come
When you know you've all you need
All can be overcome.
History repeats itself
It feels like another battle
You still think you're falling back
And find it hard to settle.
But the outcome will be different
Because this time, you believe in you
It still feels like you're climbing
But you know you will get through.

Monday, January 02, 2017

When Love Can Not Win

Why do I love them?
I can not explain
It hurts that I
Am not free to exclaim.
I do not like the others
They are not good people
But I can't say it
For fear of reprisal
Raised by a woman
Manipulative, evil
That's why they became
So thoughtless and hurtful
Not a hi or a thank you
For gifts we sent
Were they not good enough?
Is that what this meant?
But I do love the babies
Though they'll never know
Because hatred has won
So love can not show.

We never will hold them
We're not welcome there
They won't know our love
It's really not fair.
He loves them all
And he hurts and he fights
But they don't love him back
And that is not right.
She stopped them from loving him
She did so much wrong
But he thinks it's his fault
And it's been too long.
He can't get them back
Too much damage is done
If only he'd fought
When they were young.

This poem was originally written on my Facebook page (Sapphire M Ravenclaw), the coloured verse was added here.

Thursday, December 29, 2016

It Matters

Note: This poem was written around a year ago, and came up as a memory on Facebook yesterday. I had forgotten I'd written it, and it has not previously been shared. The title, however, is new. It didn't have one before, so I've just titled it today. The poem was written in regards to my partner's first granddaughter, who would have been 9 months old at the time. She is now 21 months, and my partner has a second 1 month old granddaughter we're never likely to meet.

Whether you accept or not
Doesn't make it right
Things are not
Always black and white.
But this time
I have to say
It's clear to me
They want you away.
What you want
Matters not to them
It hurts me that you can't see.
I know how you feel
I wish you would say
And take advice from me.
I know what you want
And so do they
They must know that they hurt you
The reasons they have
Don't make any sense
You're letting them desert you.
Just because you went away
You think that you deserve this
But it wasn't all your fault
As much as you're convinced.
You're letting history
Repeat itself
Please, my darling, fight
You are worthy
You do deserve
Believe that I am right.
I know that you love her
You love her as your own
You want to be her Grandad
And this should be known.