Sorry

 Originally published 7th September 2025 on Vocal Media under the pen name Sapphire Ravenclaw.

I believed what you said

I trusted you

I believed I was safe with you

I trusted that you would still accept me

When I got things wrong or made no sense

I thought you could see it

I wasn't myself

I let myself believe you cared

I know it's my fault that I pushed you away

It was the last thing I intended

There are many reasons

But hard to explain

I have tried, but clearly I failed

I don't have the words to say how I feel

But I know I am losing control

I feel like I'm screaming

But nobody hears

I'll try to pretend that I'm OK

But it's been so long that I have not been

I don't know how to be who I was

I thought I had found me

I should have known better

Than to believe I had a true friend

I want to to give up, I'll never belong

I'm sorry for thinking I could

Would it hurt less or more

If I believed

That you were not being controlled?

Perhaps you can't see what's in front of you

I think you master knows that I can

I know I've been selfish

It wasn't meant

I needed someone to hear

'Though I try, I know I don't get things right

Please be there to catch me if I fall